I will wait, I will wait for you.

I just got off of a Skype call with my lovely older brother Thomas (http://www.thomasvinicombe.co.uk/) and we were talking about relationships. Personally, I have never been in a relationship; I have never had a boyfriend, or a love interest, or a cheeky summer romance. It gets me down a lot of the time and I'm sure people can relate to the feeling of bitter loneliness on a Saturday night when you're sitting at home in your comfiest yet ugliest pair of tracksuit bottoms, eating malteasers from the packet, watching reruns of your favourite American sitcom. Thomas was reminding me that he didn't get a girlfriend until he was 21 years old and that looking back, he is so much happier with the way things turned out in his life as he now has his perfect girl who loves him in return. At school, or even on social networking sites, I get the feeling that if I want to initiate any kind of relationship with a boy, I'll have to change the way I act around them. I hate that! My good friend, Katy once told me that every relationship starts with flirting, and for my sake I hope that isn't true because I am horrified by this. I don't want to be fake and flirtatious because that isn't who I am. I think if a boy is worth it then he wouldn't care if I was batting my eyelids or audaciously laughing at their badly executed jokes. If a boy likes me then he likes me. I'll just have to wait as for right now it feels like I'm falling in love alone.